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I love this quote by Mitchell Pritchett:

"This is the funny thing about growing up. For years and years, everybody's desperately afraid, to be different, you know, in any way. And then, suddenly, almost overnight, Everybody wants to be different"

You're not gonna get better by doing things that are easy, this is why I want to take the hard way, that's when you build the character, that's when you become resilient, is going through tough times.

Comfort is good. But constant comfort is not what I'm looking for. I want the next step. I want to become better. Tiny improvements every single day.

The process of writing is so fun. But I think it's not the writing part that I find most interesting.

Yes, writing is fun too, but the most interesting part for me is the research, learning, taking notes, getting data, reflecting on the topics, doing a lot of drafts, and then, writing the actual article.

I guess I use writing as an excuse (or a tool) to learn and think.

I plan, I plan, and I plan. But I never know what are the next steps for me. This is something I feel I can control. But sometimes it's not that way.

I dream about something bigger than me. This legacy should be bigger than me.

People always tell me: "you're a really good developer", "you're a talented engineer". And instead of nodding and saying "No way, I'm not", I just wanted to say what Mori said to Yatora on Blue Period:

"It's not talent, I just spend more time thinking about art than most people... To say I have talent is to ignore all my effort."

I feel the same way as her. I spend so much time on my own craft, improving, learning, doing research, writing, sharing. "But why?", they ask, "Why spend so much time on it?". And I need to quote Masako Saeki, Yatori's teacher:

"Doesn't it make sense to dedicate yourself to the maximum in the search for what you really like? When a person does what he likes, he is unbeatable."

I feel exactly like that. Most people don't. I don't judge them for staying comfortable, I know it feels good. But I'm not like that. I'm always in search of the next step, thinking about how I can improve myself and things. It's just how my brain works. It's just a different perspective.

In the "output" mindset, you focus on making things faster. The more, the better. In the "outcome" mindset, you focus on the impact of your decisions and the most important things. It all comes down to prioritization, strategy, and planning. After figuring out the most impactful outputs, you focus on making it faster. The more impactful output, the better.

One of the things that I want to keep doing in my life is knowledge sharing. The ability to share any experience, learnings, or failures that I had in the past. Knowledge and education are the way to keep evolving our society and I want to be part of this. When I get older, I want to look back and see everything I've done to contribute to this goal and leave my legacy for future generations.

Whenever I have time to reflect, the thought of the relationship between discipline and regret always comes to my mind. Discipline is hard, it's painful but transitory. Regret is forever. For every decision in my life, I should keep asking if I choose discipline or regret.

In the last micropost I talked about my independent research and a little about freedom. Intellectual freedom keeps coming into my head and it's definitely challenging to stop these thoughts. This is the next question I want to answer: "How can I balance intellectual freedom and financial independence?"

3 years ago I remember I wrote what type of person I wanted to be. One of the things I wrote was "a person who does whatever, however, whenever, wherever he wants". This stuck with me because this is my definition of `freedom`. I want to taste this feeling now, to bring this concept to real life. This is why I built this microblog. A place I can share anything I want. There's no limitation. There's no 180 characters, no expectations from other people, no need to capitalize this. Just me and my own thoughts.